i'm 19.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

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because we know You'll Make it Through, Ells!

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

smile Elley smile. coz u know u'll make it thru.

we're praying for you and your family. semoga Mak Cik Siti Nur cepat sembuh dan diberikan kekuatan oleh Allah untuk menempuhi segalanya.

the sister ; a journey to be finished.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

3 subjects, 9 papers to go.
Ya Allah, Kau permudahkanlah segala urusan Wann.
Kau tenangkanlah hatinya dan semoga segalanya berjalan dengan lancar.


my KT is now Twenty years old. :)

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

this is a very belated post i know. but, for the fact that KT is one of my best girls, important person in my life, a caring sister that i've ever had, a good friend, a wonderful floormate ; she deserves to be appreciated this way :) she's so far away now in Bukit Selambau and i'm in Bangi, distance distance. but with the help of my beloved Merah handphone, i wrote something on her fb wall and i sms-ed her already. :)

KT aka Kak Tgh is so talented in acting. she likes to sing, you just have to name what songs you want her to sing, she'll definitely sing! :) she always tries her very best to sing along eventho sometimes she doesnt know the lyrics. :) she's quite sensitive at times but for the fact that she's a positive thinker, she cries less, at least less than me.
she's a determined person. perfectionist i must say. especially when it comes to tudung. tudung tak boleh herot (tak boleh tak betul lah dalam erti kata lain). haha. knowing her, i know she's a good daughter to her parents and she always knows her own priority, which made me amazed.

deep inside me, i'm glad to know she's one of my girls ; my beloved girls to be exact and yeah she's part of us. i am grateful for having her, so did my other girls KB, KW, Ells, Tong etc, i am very sure about it.

to my dearest KT, u know u're precious and we are always here to support u in every single thing u choose to do. happy 20th bday. may Allah bless you. semoga setiap apa yang dipilih diberkati Allah dan dipermudahkan segala urusan, InsyaAllah :)

happy 20th bday on 23rd Nov. :) friends forever and ever. sayang always. :) xoxo

Bakti Siswa ; Kg Parit Penghulu in memory :)

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

exam's over, finally. a week ago. and now i'm home. :)

Decision Maths and PJ marked as the last papers of this semester. it feels good to know that exam's finally over. now it's time to have some fun plus quality time at home. :)

well at least this end-sem break is the right time for me to go to driving school :) this is the right time as i only have another one year before i go for my practicum. like it or not, i need to have a licence. :) to own a car is the 2nd thing, 1st thing 1st ; licence :))

after habis Desicion Maths, Elley, Budi and I went to TS for Pisau Cukur :) 3rd time man! :)) Gigi Besi is so cute, siapa yang boleh resist dari menonton banyak kali? ;)

oh yeah, happy aidiladha to all muslims out there! semoga setiap pengorbanan yang dilakukan diberkati Allah hendaknya :)

after exam, i went to sg rambai for 3 days. Bakti Siswa, people! and i had so much fun. minus the fact yang banyak sangat nyamuk. :) my housemate this time was Elley. so now u can imagine how wonderful my Bakti Siswa is with Elley around. not to mention, Tong, Gee, Khalidah, Nemo semua ada. batchmates :) ada this one junior made this Bakti Siswa a whole lot fun, Hisyam! i just love being called as Kakak. haha. Kak Ezzati sounds super nice kan? ok fine, Hisyam tu sebaya, born in 1990, ala, does it count pon? he still looks like a lil bro to me.

kehadiran Nik, Didiey Sengal, Father Anak Apak (Along), Beron Ijoyy, Mamahir, Asyraff, Taufiq, Fahmi, Hanif, Asmar and ramai lagi added so much fun. sangat. those elder sisters yang super cool added joy during my 3 days dekat sana. i met new people as well. i get to know some yang i tak pernah even tegur pon around mktb so yeah, i had a blast Bakti Siswa! :)

my keluarga angkat adalah sangat simple dan ok :) eventho our 'Mak' sebaya dengan my Opah/Nenek, i still glad for having this chance to call someone as 'Mak', and not to mention our 'Ayah' yang super cuteee. seriouslyyy. :) my 'Mak' and 'Ayah' berjiran dengan Arep. hehe. Arep has a nice house and this is serious. his house is so so so cantikkkk! it looks green and yeah, alam semulajadi. :)

i'm so glad glad glad dapat join this year's Bakti Siswa :) a memorable one. what a nice memory to end my Semester 2. :)


walaupun jauh, namun kita tempuh.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

Dulu after paper EDU, that time was PKK, i went out from the hall awal satu jam. Berusaha gila siapkan everything cz i wanna meet him. No, it's not that i want to meet him, he came to my place and it's time to bjumpa. setelah sekian lama.
well, chipsmore is always chipsmore.
when you have nothing to do, you tend to ingat kembali all the good old time memories you have with your favourite people.

i better not bcs afterl all, exam is not over. tak sabar nak habissss. haish.

Jadikanlah Diriku Pilihan Terakhir Hatimu.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

lagu Butterfly Melly, oh i likeeee. hehs. :)
ok, this is very random but i love these names very much :

1. Adam (no, tiada kaitan dengan watak Remy Ishak tu)

2. Redza (yes, ni mmg sbb si Gigi Besi tu, haha)

3. Ezzah (Ummi kata dulu nak letak nama ni tp sebab Mak Long nama Azizah, taknak ada AH kat belakang juga, nnt sebut macam sama)

4. Hana (entah, i just love this name, simple tp sounds so cute kan, hehs).

ok sudahlah Ezzatiiiiiii, exam belum tamat.

Decision Maths melambai mesra while I am happy imagining how great my holidays might be nnt. Sigh

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

can't wait for exam to be over.
can't wait to join JPP 09/10 pergi Bakti Siswa kat Melaka. (sebenarnya nk spend time dengan my girls yang pergi)
can't wait to be home for 1 month plus.
can't wait to at least lepak mamak for breakfast sekali sekala dengan Zuely.
can't wait to ambil lesen kereta sama-sama dengan Wann.
can't wait to guna semua kertas origami Ummi belikan tu.
can't wait utk semua-semua lah!

okeh, tp sekarang nak atau pun tak kena jugak tunggu lagi 2 paper. sebelum dapat berseronokkkkk.


Fly Away So High.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful

super cuteeeeeee!

"KakTi, B suta oligami."

her name is Batrisyia, we call her B. ambil huruf depan sahaja. :) she likes origami very much just like me.

percayalah kata hati.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

Pinjamkanku satu bintang,
and i'll give that bintang to the person
I love with all my heart.

I trust my heart,
And will always be.

For the fact that i dun trust you anymore
based on the reason that u've changed a lot
hurts me so much.
people come and go,
but i dont know the exact reason why
it's hard to remove you out from my heart.
i should have done this earlier but i failed.
this long holidays is the right time ; this have to be
included in my to-do list.
time heals and i do believe in that.
more time to think and muhasabah huh?

Melly kata, jangan pernah menyanjung Cinta jika tak mengerti maknanya.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
great! my favourite jiran, Zuely and my high school debatemate, ZN dah habis exam. i wonder why the admin susun jadual macam ni. haish. 2 papers to go for me and my batchmates, oh no!
i'm home for 2 days starting from today cz i need to join my family pergi visit Wann esok, yes family SPM visit. huhu. a few days to go to her big day. we'll definitely give her our moral supports sebanyak yang mungkin. hehs.
i'm at Abah's new office right now. boringg. cz tak kenal langsung dengan mana-mana orang. and Abah kata semua orang terkejut tgk ada orang perempuan kat bilik Abah. sah-sah lah yang ada ni adalah anak Abah. fine lah Abah looks a bit younger than his age tapi possible apa ada anak umur 19. huhu. apa-apalah. tadi Abah plan nk hantar pergi KLCC so that i can watch Pisau Cukur or lepak kat Kinokuniya tp Abah nk tunjuk his office. haish. tp xpe as long as i tak menyusahkan sesiapa, it's fine for me, biar pun boring mcm apa je ni.
KB and KW pergi Jalan TAR. i hope things are ok for both of them. my girls and i selalu risau kalau mereka keluar berdua sahaja. haha. kidding. we care for you, loves. :) KT pergi tgk Pisau Cukur with Syukri (bukan nama sebenar, haha, ask KT, dia yang tipu nama her boyfie dekat my roommate semalam, haha) Ells pergi basuh rumah dengan her classmates. ok, jgn nk buka cerita sedih when it comes to isu sensitif ; rumah pindah-randah and so on. :(
exam is fine. another 2 papers to go. i got a new friend anyway. at first, i thought Aslm buat prank nak kata dia budak maktab lain lah ape lah, sekali mmg betul ada this one guy dapat my celcom number (which is very rare) and terus call sebab nak share spot questions. huhu. okeh, bulan jatuh ke riba mungkin? tp benefitnya banyak for me and for my coursemates. huhu. bak kata Aslm, sangat lah mcm SBP Trials nak main spot spot. haha. apa-apalah.
semalam Ells, KT and I pergi bilik Buddi sebab nk kacau her. ye la, we saw so many new names dekat dalam her SE handphone. ehem. tp akhirnya, gagal nk temuramah sebab KT tak dapat rampas handphone dengan baik. last last tgk Histeria sama-sama. this time, KW joined us walaupun dia asyik tgk muka KT je. 80% tgk muka KT, 20% je of the time spent KW tgk screen lappy Buddi. haha. seronok juga tgk cerita tu, ada la terkejut sekali dua tp tak real sangat. walaupun begitu, Ells still cepatkan part membaca seruan memanggil hantu. huhu.
what ever it is, life is wonderful. minus a few parts where i still stuck on someone. oh no, i know this is so not nice to hear, Zuely, but things happen tanpa disedari kan? ok, i'll try to forget.
:) oh Ezzati u can do itttttt.


if you could feel the same thing..

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.
.... but i know you will never will.

i went to someone's exam place this afternoon, like i always do setiap semester.
it's just i didnt write anything to prove that i was there this time. plus i didnt bring pencil masa tu.

i always pray for your success and health, dear you, like i always do.
that is what a friend should do pon kan.
oh yeah, i wrote something the next day nya tu. cz i know i dun communicate much with that someone and i dun hv any other medium so yeah, that answers why. thanks Ells for temaning me. i know i looked silly by doing this kind of thing, but if u were me, u'll know why.


the Abang. the Brother.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

today is Abang Sin's 23rd Birthdayy. may Allah bless him. Amin.
my one and only Abang. he's my only guardian angel if u define a brother as your guardian angel.having him around brings joy to my life.
it's true that sometimes i look maturer than him, but he's a wise man in his own definition. he's my brother, my one and only brother.
baik dan buruk, walau apa pun. Happy Birthdayyyyyy.

3 things.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

1. i've watched Pisau Cukur twice. 5th and 6th November. TS and Alamanda. best best best. i loikeeeeeeee Gigi Besi very much. i like the character, the way he talked, everything. tp lagi best kalau Faqir si Gigi Besi punya character ada part yang dia minat bola or something. haha.anyway, it has been a year since i last ada crush. hehs.
2. i feel like crying everytime i listen to Yuna's Dan Sebenarnya. i may have my own concrete reason for that. the climax was td, masa tgk muzik-muzik. Yuna is one of the semifinalists. omg. the lyrics mmg makan dalam. i shud be ok by now. i am ok tp sometimes biasalah. yes blame the hormones.
3. 4 papers finals menunggu lagi. ok, saja nk tulis, saya sokong Negeri Sembilan for Piala Malaysia. my Ayah is coming to KL from Kuala Pilah. ho yeahhh. Hobin Jang Hobin :)


Butterfly Terbang Tinggi.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

Hidup ni kena banyak bersabar. Banyak aspek sangat yang kena sabarnya. Sampai kadang-kadang dah tak tau mana part yang harus sabar, wajib sabar dan sebagainya.

Tidak boleh tidak untuk tidak bersabar kerana setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. 3 years to go. I just hope for the best things to happen in my life.

Kesabaran untuk tidak bengang dan cakap lepas demi menjaga hati semua pihak bukanlah mudah. Aku kena cherish juga detik-detik sebegini sebab nnt mungkin rindu nak bengang dengan orang. Rindu akan orang-orang yang datang bertandang bawa hal-hal yang memeningkan kepala.

Aku hairan akan orang yang ambil mudah (sangat mudah) dengan kehidupan sedangkan pada masa yang sama menyusahkan orang lain. Aku berdoa agar Allah kuatkan semangat aku untuk terus hidup gembira. Aku sangat bersyukur kerana my other halves live not so far from least, besides my girls and friends here, I always have them in Bangi.

Everytime I feel like crying, I know the best person to msg is Ummi. She’s a superwoman anyway. She knows how to make me less sedih and all. I just need to type “rasa macam tension la”. Ummi is always Ummi. And I love her so much. I dun blame her for being a positive thinker cz secretly I would like to be one.

bak kata Skemm Si Bestie, life isn’t always fair. Mungkin hari ini hari kau untuk menyusahkan orang, mungkin lambat laun ada orang lain yang datang bertandang menyusahkan kau. Hidup ibarat roda, lupakah kita?

Terima kasih kepada mana-mana pihak yang sedikit-sebanyak membantu dalam keserabutan melanda. Ingatlah janji Allah kepada hamba-hambaNya yang membantu orang-orang dalam kesusahan.

Sakit kepala yang melanda dua tiga hari ni kuharapkan tidak berpanjangan. Susah juga kalau ada apa-apa yang tak kena. I’ve had enough ubat in my bakul dah right now. Tapi walau apa sekali pun, hidup ni kena sentiasa redha. Dunia ni hanya pinjaman dan tempat persinggahan kita sebagai manusia biasa.


Noe Boe :)

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

one of my best girls celebrated her 20th bday todayy :) Nurul Iffahku Sayang :)
glad you like the pressie. cant wait to meet you bila-bila free nnt. hehs.
all the love in the world, Ezadd :)


life is not easy.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

i miss someone so much. i just dont know why. this is so random but i cant help it.
i wish you well in your finals. may Allah ease you.

setelah empat tahun berlalu.
you never fail to make me smile.
i'm grateful for the beautiful friendship we both have.

you're a chipsmore i know.
but what more to say?
you are you.

i am still the same 'ezad' you used to know
since the very first time we met.

and i'm here, selalu.
i treasure beautiful friendships very much.

we're not so far from each other but the truth
is we are more than jauh.

entahlah. you just came to my mind
while i'm busy preparing my folio tadi.

wtv it is, just so u know that i'll always be here.

there must be something wrong somewhere.

In The Name Of Allah, The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

nk cepat cuti. nk duduk rumah.
nak kena isi kelompangan yang wujud. i'm more than lagha this semester or this whole year to be exact.

kenapa lah?
mungkin semakin hari semakin hati ini jauh dari Tuhan Sekalian Alam.
i blame myself for being forgetful.
hanya dengan mengingati Allah, hati akan tenang. and i want that kind of ketenangan, berpanjangan.
bukannya sekadar ketenangan yang dirasai hasil daripada dapat penuhi kehendak duniawi semata-mata.
Ya Allah, bimbinglah kami ke jalan yang benar.